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meditations on masculinity

The Transmasculinity of Clark Gable

"The king of Hollywood." "Brutally masculine." "All man... and then some." These were all descriptions, usually in film reviews, ascribed to the legendary Hollywood film actor Clark Gable. Nowadays, we understand that most of the iconic Golden Hollywood actors were marketing brands, often with

Processing Guilt and Power in a Legal Gender Change

When I was a comic book journalist in the mid 2010s, I was targeted for sex-based reasons twice by cis men with more clout and power. The first time was by a small time artist with a long time girlfriend who paid me minimal mind at the industry dinner we

Meditations on Masculinity: The Beauty of Roughness

When I was a senior in high school, there were two other students in one of my classes probably named Jake and Kristen. I lived in a large town and had almost 400 kids in my graduating class, so this was the first time I had ever met either of

Mea Culpa: The "Logic" of Too Much Testosterone

Yesterday, I found out that my testosterone level was 765 out of the 300-770 average range. Meaning that I currently have the testosterone level at the high end of the average male. This was incredibly shocking and also deeply upsetting to me because that is 600 mg up from the

On Critical Thinking in Magic and Spirituality and Being an Ethical Occultist

Every community built around a shared focus starts to develop insular expectations that are not reflective of mainstream access nor understanding. For example, I only just started reading Heinrich Cornelius Agrippa's Three Books of Occult Philosophy. Most people who do not practice magic do not know what these

Meditations on Masculinity

Not to infer the common misconception that masculinity as a quality is solely, or even primarily, held by cis men, but for the sake of the conversation let's start with cis men. We have all had shitty experiences with cis men. Even cis men have shitty experiences with

Non-binaryness, Transmasculinity, and the Battle with Modern Feminism

I am not sure how spiritual or magical this post is going to be, but it's important for me to express. When I started writing this post, I had recently spoken to 3 fellow genderqueer people (while the Full Moon in Virgo was opposing Saturn and Mercury in