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Meditations on Masculinity

Not to infer the common misconception that masculinity as a quality is solely, or even primarily, held by cis men, but for the sake of the conversation let's start with cis men. We have all had shitty experiences with cis men. Even cis men have shitty experiences with

How Transitioning My Gender Improved My Psychic Skills

You can't truly ground if you can't trust yourself. My childhood was spent in dissociation. Because my brain was starved of necessary dopamine, it generated more via chronic daydreaming. I never knew what was going on around me because I lived in my head where my

Life Updates and When It's Great to Be Wrong

Entering into 2024, it seemed to be all about love and relationships. That's what Twitter astrologers espoused, anyway. Frankly, looking at my transits, I thought so too and so did my astrologer and tarot reader. Venus and Mars finally reconnected in Aquarius a few months ago after never

Starting Testosterone

I started testosterone today. The New Moon approaches in Taurus, exalted and well conditioned. I prayed to and praised Mercury with off-the-cuff improvised glee before applying the gel to my Inanna 8-point star chest tattoo. It went something like: O Friend O Teacher O Mentor O Guide As you are

How to Practice Magic When You're Inconsistent

Maybe I'm just fated to be a cosmic weirdo even among other cosmic weirdos. A big reason I named this blog what I did, with the About angle that I have up as of this writing, is that I feel like a lot of occultists including those who

The Importance of My Androgyny

[Judgements 10] A retrograde planet signifies disobedience, and contradiction, and turning back and taking back, and diversity or discord. [BW VIII.31] A retrograde planet signifies antagonism (Epstein: revelationem) and the dissipation of everything considered. [BW VIII.92] Retrograde: like one returning, and pulling back. (Epstein: "rebellious and defiant.

Non-binaryness, Transmasculinity, and the Battle with Modern Feminism

I am not sure how spiritual or magical this post is going to be, but it's important for me to express. When I started writing this post, I had recently spoken to 3 fellow genderqueer people (while the Full Moon in Virgo was opposing Saturn and Mercury in